Another day another shitload of work. You know those work at home jobs are crazy! You would think the whole work at your own pace would be cool but if you take too long you will be stuck with a shitload of work to finish. I better get back to work before they send me more shit to do.

Sometimes i wonder what the point of living is. I look around and i see all these people who are happy. What are they doing that im not.

I used to be happy once. Jeremy told me it wouldn't last. I didnt believe him then. He was as unhappy as i am now. I should have believed him. I should have ended the relationship before she did. Man! It just hurts so much. Why! I hate this.

Its been a month since she dumped me. Jeremys been the only person whos understood what im going through. He is the only one who has stuck by me and knows how i feel. All my other friends have told me im an idiot for being this sad for this long. At least one person understands. He said that until im "back and running the show" he will stay single. But, between me and you i think thats just his way of chickening out of talking to girls. Hes never been too good at getting girls to like him.

Ha its funny, i used to give him advice on how to hook up with girls and now hes helping me get over one. Funny how things work isnt it. Hes a good guy. I dont think he realizes how good a guy he is. And since he cant do anything about this, anyone who reads this that knows Jeremy, tell him hes a good guy. It'll make him feel good. Oh and while we are at it. Jeremy has a big teddy bear that he keeps in his room that he got when he was little. Sometimes when he feel real depressed he sleeps with the teddy bear. Ha do something about that kid!